I wonder sometimes if I'm just too damaged for relationships.
I guess I could make the argument that I'm talking about all interpersonal relationships, but there's definitely something different--something MORE--about romantic relationships.
I'm stubborn, argumentative, and quick-tempered. All my life, people have told me how "difficult" I am. After awhile, such descriptors stick to you, to the way you see yourself.
I know happy relationships exist. I've seen them. But I wonder sometimes if that's even possible for me. Maybe I'm just too broken, too unwilling to compromise, too unable to change.
Or maybe I don't trust enough, won't let anyone close enough to my heart. And why should I bother? When I do, I get hurt.
I don't know if people are worth it. I don't know if relationships are worth it. For whatever momentary happiness they bring into your life, they seem to be accompanied by so much pain and aggrivation.